I like birdman but fuck this. He can go get a 9 to 5.
Where I live it is incredibly difficult.
Trust me, I tried.
No one wants to hire me and its not like I can do alot of physical labor. I just can't do it and that sucks on a level I can't begin to explain.
Small town Ontario is not very kind to the fat guy and with only having one vehicle,its impossible 9 times out of 10.
It would be easy if we lived in a city but since my wife is a teacher in this particular school board, we really can't move because its hard to change school boards.
Allow me to explain, alot of school boards require you to be on a supply list for a year before you can apply for a contract position...however there is a wait list to get on supply lists usually and if you do, your competition is stiff at best.
If you want on a supply list, you volunteer with no compensation and still thats no guarantee you'll get on the list.
She got lucky and got on this supply list and thats why we have waited 4 and half years that a small job will pop up or someone will move on so she can apply for a better contract position. We're holding out hope that this will be the year but she's applied to almost 100 jobs and no calls back...
Long story short, we move, we lose that everything for the last 4 years and we start from scratch and the cycle begins anew.
We have talked about us moving apart and doing what we can til we can be together again but thats not one hell of a way to start a marriage and begin a life together.
Its not even really financially possible for us to do but if I have to live in a rat hole for a few years til I can see my wife again, I could do it but that means goodbye for everything I've worked for and built with all of you.
This year I lost all my support from my family and its been rough that is what has kept me afloat for a while but now my parents are both gone and its been hard to make ends meet.
I've had a few small radio gigs here and there do some production or voice over work but its small and hardly covers expenses.
This year has been incredibly hard and I haven't done a commercial since April and i've had one consulting gig this whole year.
A big job I was hoping to get may fall thru because I am canadian right now and when I found that out, my wife and I cried ourselves to sleep that night.
Things now seem worse because I might have to have surgery on my knee further incapacitating my ability to work and...its been been hard no doubt about that and i suspect it'll get harder but still we must push forward.
I also pay for all my own conventions by myself from selling my stuff and now that avenue is now no longer available to me. (Long story)
I've used up all my savings to try and live my dream to be an entertainer and so far,its been moderately successful but now I face a lot of tough choices.
We are facing a reality that could suck and mean that all that I have worked and suffered for is over and I'm done
I refuse to give up and I am trying new things and doing my best to keep us afloat but its been harder then alot of people know.
Link is doing this out of the kindness of his heart and I thank him more then words can ever explain. i also have been so beat down by the last few months that I don't have a lot of hope or joy left that this will be the life changing thing that helps us get back on our feet. I'm not the most popular guy, I'm not one of the super popular guys who would get instant support and I acknowledge that and am appreciative for every bit of support I do get.
I fear that the light on my microphone will go out for good this year and I am prepared for that possibility and it terrifies me that everything could be for nothing but I can't give up on my dream so easily but we'll see what happens.
If you want to donate, that would really help me and the wife out of a bind.
However if you do not, its not like I can hold that against you.